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Originally Posted by Billup
I wouldn't say I've been the "cool kid" my whole life, but I have always made a point of making friends with everyone I come in contact with. I hung out with the "losers", goth kids, preppy kids, black kids, it really didn't matter. It's really just learning to be OK with yourself, and understanding your own value on earth.
I had a 2 year "depression" spree around senior year of HS, where I was doing a ton of things I shouldn't have, and in turn, it had some pretty bad affects on how I viewed life and myself. So with that said, while I can't compare on the exact situation you are in, the emotions are essentially the same. To this day, I still work on myself and tell myself that I am OK with the flaws I do have, but I don't let that burden life as a whole. Remind yourself that there are people who have it so incredibly poorly off that what we get to embrace in life is one of the best gifts you could ever receive, and nothing should put a damper on that.
Experiencing new things and new places can open your eyes to what life is all about. I was talking to this chick about skydiving, and she said, Oh I'd never do that, that's scary, what if the shute doesn't deploy? For me, I don't think about things like that, I think about the thrill and the amount of joy I would feel when my feet touch the ground, because I did something that naturally would make me shit my pants.
All I'm saying is, you ultimately have the power to be happy with who you are as a person today. New things come in life no matter how young or how old you are, and that's what makes life exciting. My friends that essentially gave up when they were 18, 20, and 21...., have no way to turn back the clock and do things that really remind you what life is all about. Not to mention the pain it causes on all the people around you, and the fact that you have people that care about you that much should be enough to put a smile on your face.
Embrace life man. I am far from being a stud or the cool kid, I am just me, and people either like it or they don't. I love it, and that's all that matters, as it should for you and anyone else.
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Very well said. Honestly, I have a very similar attitude for the most part. I can basically be chill with pretty much anyone because political/religeous/cultural boundaries are non exisitent to me. I respect any individuals' right to think freely and be themselves, as long as they are not being blatantly disrespectful to any given persons' right to think and feel free themselves. Also, I am aware that "things ain't that bad" because during many of my work related travels, I have witnessed and or dealt with hardships far worse than my current environment.
Like you, I am comfortable with who I am, even if who I am doesn't fit into any standard social category. I can't say the same for when I was younger though, lol. Since this past Sunday, you all have made me step back to identify what my core problem is, and I truly belive it's my current assignment. Before, even if I didn't fit in, I still had the drive and energy to make any situation worth whie or at least tolerable. Now I just don't want to be bothered. I gotta start finding the bright side to things again. I have one year to go, then I can either get reassigned to hopefully a better organized unit, or change career paths entirely. These last two years really drained my energy being in this work environment. The light at the end of the tunnel can be found in Dec 2015. Until then, I will hang around here and chime in whenever I think my 2 cents MAY be worth mor than... 2 cents, lol